drained,emotionally.......










i got a shock of my life when i looked into the mirror and realised my panda eyes became so jialat! :((((

ranted @ 10:26 PM yayness, i just closed a mega big deal worth $xx,xxx!! even though the commission would only be debitted to my acct end of the yr, bt im still freaking happy la!! this happy news is finally confirmed. thks to duapehkong's blessings!! :)))


Im glad October had been v v v v smooth for me in work; closing small small deals every wk. so wasted lady luck wasn't with me when im gambling though. zzzz! -.-












[[ dont do it anymore. ]]

ranted @ 7:40 PM both me and K actually helped contributed 1 month's supervisor salary to MBS over the wkends. nice! :((

ranted @ 9:35 PM I've a gd news to share!!! better wait till its confirmed before i blogged it down.








wish me luck!!! :))))))

ranted @ 11:27 AM i realised i made a mistake in blogging abt our wonderful r/s 1 week ago. now we are kinda undergoing a rough patch. quarrels,make up,quarrels,make up. It seems never ending. argh!!



ranted @ 8:00 PM 每当两个人大吵一架以后，

总是有着一段冷战的时候，

而在每一次的冷战以后，

最先开口的那个人却是我...


或许你早知道我会沉不住气，

或许你早知道我爱你比较多，

所以你可以倔强的选择沉默，

所以你可以高傲地等我道歉...



或许两个人在一起就要有人先让步，

于是我成为了让步的那个人，

我不在乎放下身段来讨好你，

但你可知道我的心有多么地痛吗？



痛，不是因为要低头向你道歉，

痛，是因为争吵后你总是可以轻易地不接我电话，

痛，是因为你总是可以说出那些伤我心的话，

痛，是因为你竟然可以怀疑我对你付出的真心...



我付出真心，难道你就看不见吗？

我对你的好，难道你就感受不到吗？

我对你怎样，难道你都不知道吗？

你可以忍心看着我为你流泪，

却还能继续用言语来伤害我...



心都碎了，却还得骗自己说这只是气话，

再生气你，却还是主动地开口向你道歉，

即使你错，却还是可以无条件地原谅你，

只是希望，我们的爱情不会就此结束了...



你不会知道为什么每一次的吵架都是你赢，

因为你不知道我有多么地爱你，

如果我输了可以让你觉得好过点，那我愿意,

但请你记得好好珍惜这份感觉，

因为再爱你的人也会有对你绝望的一天...

当哪天我吵架赢你的时候，也许就是我离开你的时候了...

ranted @ 2:38 PM finally met up with my girlies after 39434837 mths. gosh, i miss them so much can!! even if its just plain gossiping OR updating each other's lives OR just fooling ard. :))))

had fun polaroid-ing with them even though I had pathetically 4 films left.LOL! =X








much loves! (:

ranted @ 12:18 AM
K have been darn sweet AGAIN for the past 2 wks,plus my r/s with his family have also drastically improved big tym. i lykeeeee!! :)))
Im so glad he finally learnt hw to give in to me,finally knws what i really want and finally realise it takes 2 to make the whole r/s perfect! :D
thks tuapehkong for the constant blessings; i think im the happiest girl on earth nw!

ranted @ 8:39 PM Happy 4th monthiversary love!! (:

ranted @ 6:15 PM