2day's the last day of the yr and 2009's gonna be so over in a blink.so much flashbacks and i really gotta say this yr went by pretty fast; there were lotsa ups and downs thruout the year and thk god for all these obstacles-they actually made me stronger! :)


my career for this yr was pretty monotonous though.. i've learnt to defend and protect myself from all the nasty accusations. I've learnt to be more responsible in my work and i realise jealousy kills,big tym! my appraisal for this yr was not done yet though. its either my manager forgets to do it with me,or she can't be bothered! hahahas. bt anw,it doesn't matter much too. friends ard me knw im so gonna tender next mth alr. =/


i've made tons of new friends for 2009. sad to say mostly partying kakis. tt explains why i had lotsa party invites weekly. i believed in working hard and partying hard right after work and my belief still stands today. yet recently, i think i partied alil too much. tt's why i've cut down so much on my nightlife! thk god i din made any enemies this yr (nt tt i can rmb), so there ain much drama in my life too. *phew*
btw,i still treasure our friendship between my baobeis ( fen,min and dora), my girlies (d2,farah,dayah), my frenzy 4 (char,JX and GT), my party 4 (ass,sista and don) and more. you pple really made a difference in my life this yr. loves! :)


oh well. as for 2009; i had some regrets too.if tym cld unwind;trust me! i'll have opted for a easier way out to solve things. im glad things ended fast between B and me rite at the start of 2009. tried dating for the next half a yr, bt those guys just cldn't make it. i'm so sry i had been such a bitch to them; i just don't wanna waste tym on fruitless endings. karma strikes me in aug though. met A and he was one of the biggest jerk i ever knew. thk guan yin ma for blessing me with those womanly instincts. HAHAHA! yeah, and god was being exceptionally nice to me in oct too. he made me met W and i tasted love again. thereafter was 2 mths of agony and im amazed hw my life can be twisted in such a short span of time. nw looking back, i find my life this yr funny. lols!




resolution for this yr? i so wanna stay happy for at least 300days in yr 2010. (:

ranted @ 3:53 PM my period's playing pranks on me this mth.. it always dun wanna come when im praying so hard for it's early arrival.. damn! nw, i can only hope her visit wun clash with my partying sessions this week! *cross fingers*








btw, next week is love!! im off on thur and sun;madness! infection,pls go away.. u're so nt welcome next week! >.<

ranted @ 9:18 PM my doc forbids me to smk and drink for the tym being nw.. plus no more make up and late nights till my infection recovers...great uh.. and i feel lyk im being "quarantined" at home on a sat.. gosh.. and guess wad? i've just spent my entire afternoon spring cleaning my room.. its finally dust free after decades.. :p
mb the doc's helping me afterall.. =X




btw,happy boxing day peeps! my xmas eve and xmas were spent with my dear friends and booze this yr.. plus thks all for the wonderful & "handy" gifts.. loves! :)




比想象中更痛
你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走
都挤在我心中
我就有责任让
它值得被珍重


谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候
我眼泪都笑了
谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着
找回光和热
面对你的时候
我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客
因为路有些曲折
是美的


心碎成了沙漠
就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手
本就不属于我
又何必在乎它
以后属于谁呢


谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候
我眼泪都笑了
谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着找回光和热
面对你的时候
我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客
因为路有些曲折
是美的


我眼泪都笑了
谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候
我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾
因为我已爱过你
深深的
[[ thk u for being so realistic. u no longer exist in my world, not anymore ]]

ranted @ 4:59 PM i think i deserve a pat recently.. i've not been drinking and smking for days already! all thks to my face nw.. sobs! infections everywhere and i always get damn depressed whenever i looked into the mirror... :( :( :(




















celebrations are round the corner.. suddenly i realise i've actually lotsa parties on hand..damn!

ranted @ 11:06 PM i must say watching the gala premiere of "bodyguards & assassins" in gold class theatre rocks to the max!!! :D
afew of my colleagues n me decided to attend the gala premiere on wed night @ the v last min after we knock off ard 8++.. since one of our supplier was the main sponser for the movie;we get to view the preview first hand tt night.. weets!
gold class was awesome! we get to drink free flow of white wine,popcorns,nachos and even M&Ms whole night long.. all we have to do is to press a button on our table and the servers wld promptly bring it over to us.. tsk tsk! this is wad i call princess's life! :p




ytd was working as per norm.. one of those days where we've gt nth much to do.. and just laze ard in the store whole day.. :D
after work met up with shifu and we headed down wine company to book table first. zoey,aggie and xiaodi met up with us shortly and we started our drinking and gossipping session as usual! tsk tsk.. its been exactly half a yr since the few of us met up to bitch abt work; and ytd we had a real gd bitching session! few of us had 5bottles of lychee wine and the treat was on xiao di since he just clinched a 1 mil business for his company! :)








as for 2day, its my day off again! woohoo.. made a trip down to mr dentist and facial.. was supposed to party 2nite, bt i've just got cold sores and its spreading to my entire face nw! so i guess i better stay at home and slp early.. i dun wanna scare pple with the infection on my face nw.. T.T
and hw great,xmas's round the corner as well.. :(


[[hope tml wld go smoothly! *cross fingers* ]]

ranted @ 9:26 PM the whole world must have had went zoukout last sat! to think i was @ dempsey tt night tgt with DK and darren for chilout session..tsk tsk, im sounding so old and unhappening nw.. =/

our "feast" enjoyed tgt with white wine and erdinger whole night long.. :)

i always met them for party session and it was my first tym hanging out with DK and Darren purely for chillout only.. nearly headed down to a thai disco for 2nd round though..thk god darren managed to convince us and drove us back.. :p






Sunday was spent fruitfully with baobei fen.. shopping and hanging out in town till late before we headed down to DF tgt with sista they all for impromptu drinking session.. drank and lanced till 2am b4 gg bk hm.. it was a gd gd night even though there aren't enuff booze! =X




Monday was dreadful...as usual... busy thruout the day and i was super duper tired as well.. worked till nearly 9pm before knocking off can.. 12hrs of work n i nearly died! T.T
rushed home and KO immediately before 11pm..






and 2day i actually rejected partying 2nite.. what's wrong with me man! *fumes*








[[ 2010's gonna be a changing pt for me............for sure! =) ]]

ranted @ 10:36 PM Working in the retail line was nv easy and i gotta say shit happens all the tym.....










however sometimes compliment letters or even customer referrals make kinda big difference to us! they somehow made our day.just like 2day! :D

ranted @ 10:56 PM i seriously am lacking of tym to blog properly for the past 1 week's mainly bcuz of work! first tym and im quite proud of myself nw! ahahaha.. at least alcohol and partying aren't excuses for nt blogging anymore! :p






Tuesday (01.12.2009)
woke as per normal! nth much extraordinary happened as far as i cld rmb.. tsk tsk! i only recalled every1 of us rushed home immediately to slp right after work.. knocked off @ 8++ and all of us had to slp darn early tt night due to a stupid brkfast talk the next day.. -.-"


Wednesday (02.12.2009)
woke up @ 530am for the sake of attending a dumb brkfast talk @ four seasons hotel! so annoying.. the ang moh speaker sucks and his product talk was making me doze off any moment.. i had a rough morning fighting against Mr Zhou Gong can! >.<
and still, we had to work as per norm..all the way till 8++ at night.. how nice! rushed home again to slp early tt night..


Thursday (03.12.2009)
grrrr, woke up @ 6am for another product talk! hw great, 2 brkfast talks in a row.. and nt lyke we get PAID for all the extra hrs we clocked in for the talk! they just bribed us with "sumptous" brkfasts..i wonder y no body even speak up to the management regarding this! -.-"
anw, work as usual.. busy lyke shit bcuz xmas's near the corner.. rushed home to change after work and met up with D2 for zouk session with her friends.. stayed all the way till 5++ b4 gg bk home to slp.. i was god damn tired by then.. :(


Friday (04.12.2009)
slept till my pillow was full of my saliva before i woke up reluctantly.. washed up and slowly made my way dwn to bugis and meet my girlies for steamboat plus movie session! its really been ages since i last met dem.. =X

i swear we eat so much so much;our tums nearly burst.. definitely made our $$ well spent! :p

movie was @ iluma and we had our unglam moments crazily snapping away in the theatre before the show. tsk tsk! =/
the show ended ard 1am & cabbed home thereafter!


Saturday (05.12.2009)
crazy sat with lotsa pple out doing xmas shopping.. was so busy thruout the day;we actually had no free tym at all to chit chat among ourselves can! =X
supposed to party at night @ SD, but i was too tired i actually cancelled on them the v v last min. and i felt so bad every1 din get to party tt night! trust me, i wld go if i cld! :( :(


Sunday (06.12.2009)
normal working day,nth much happened! tot of resting @ home and whipped up some self made instant food.. din realise some stuffs were actually expired!! -.-


Monday (07.12.2009)
woke up feeling giddy and nauseous! went to work nvtheless;tot the feeling wld go away soon. din knw it actually got worst.. took MC and went to see the doc's. i had mild food poisoning,dammit! >.<
cldn't even eat anything for the entire day.i just puked out wadever i consume; the feeling sucks big tym! so my whole monday was spent slping n slping all the way till tues morning! :)


Tuesday (08.12.2009)
woke up early in the morn and headed down to bishan.met up with ass for meet ups with some property agents. we'll most prob be studying and getting a property agent license soon. hopefully my plan to change a new job and be a part tym agent would work by feb 2010! *cross fingers* :)
met up with taizi in the afternoon for lunch plus la teh session to talk more abt property line. i dunno if its me or wad, but i think its tym to move my cheese and start exploring for better job opportunities! ^^
thereafter,its meeting up with baobei fen in town.. tgt with alexx and allan.. dinner was @ taka and we proceeded to LR for champagne session! *slurps*
minz,dora and afew more joined us and we had nicey chats over 3 bottles of champagnes! :D

the left pic was one random shot taken inside a xmas tree outside ION. ok,sounds complicated!
loitered in town till ard 11++ b4 train-ing bk.. chk out our after-so-many-attempts-shot! :p


Wednesday (09.12.2009)
after resting for 2 days,work piled up lyke MAD!! im so tired clearing the mess and im quite surprised i still have the blogging mood 2nite..
hahaha, alright! tym for bed.. 3 more days before my next off day..can't wait!!








[[ life is really unfair. ]]

ranted @ 11:39 PM actually wanted to blend tt emo post into the blackgrd color, bt i just can't seems to get it right..argh! plus connection's darn slow 2nite. blog again tml!

ranted @ 11:05 PM Dear W,
its gg to be 1 mth soon since we last contacted & im wondering how have you been. i've been searching for a place to pen dwn my feelings to you and i tot here would prob be the most appropriate though you wun even get to read this.
I've stopped telling my friends how i'm feeling now and guess everyone assumed i've moved on. yups, i really wanna move on so badly;yet i cld nv stop thinking abt you everyday. sucks,this feeling is eating me up,literally!
I questioned myself everyday y you just left w/o a word. I wondered how come you can vanished from my world out of a sudden. I even dwelled on the fact tt things ended way too fast between us.
every1 told me you're just too heartless and told me to forget abt you.i always tot life would definitely be easier if i started hating you. Thus i started imagining you probably having someone outside way before me. or perhaps you knew another person much older than me in your class when we were tgt. All in all, i forced myself to think about all those random negative stuffs.
I recalled telling friends ard me tt this r/s is simply too short lived and its a waste of my tym for me to be sad for so long. i rmb making a promise to myself-to only be depressed for the entire november and then i'll pick myself up at where i fell. i tot i cld fulfill tt lil promise i made to myself.
i tot i forgot how to love another person ever since i met tt jerk few mths back. and initially i was really afraid of committing myself to you. i was hesitant and skeptical between us; bt u always manage to reassure me with all tt you did n the words tt you said. i knew you loved me more than i did and guess tt's one of the reason why i din expect such a sudden twist towards the end of our r/s.
Do you knw I always have the urge to contact you everyday?yet im scared at the same tym. I dun wish to knw if you've already moved on or not cuz i'm afraid reality would be too much for me to handle.
I dun need presents this xmas. I just hope Santa can bring you back into my life for 1 last tym,i'll be happy even if we're just normal friends.
thank you for once loving me.






once yours.

ranted @ 10:25 PM